I'd like to slowdance to the rhythm of our heartbeats.

The scene has shifted.

Table 123; back to basics.

This is my last post for this blog. Turned eighteen, & decided i need a change. Those who wish to know my new url, can drop me a text directly or find your way, like spy spy people. Down with a bout of illness lately, it's the first for the year and i hope it's the last.

Bye bye:)

Shades of grey.

So tell me, am i worth less or am i worthless?

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Hues of red, orange and yellow coloured the morning sky, accompanying me on my journey to school. It was a breathtaking sight, catching the sunrise. Shades of its wonders got me enraptured in the beauty of it all. Sleepy-eyed, the rays filtered through the tiny slits of windows to my soul, providing a momentary comfort. Most of the others were probably too absorbed and consumed to take a step back and gaze at nature's wonders. Least qualified to comment, yet i can't help but ponder-a captivating sight like this needs to be shared, & yet the most beautiful sky can turn to grey. Captured by the canvas painted before me, it lay down the rest of my day to come as it slowly turned cloudy and grey.

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By space, the world engulfs me. By thought, i encompasses the whole.

Save Our Souls.

I never liked, being neither here nor there.

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Consumed within my thoughts, i began a long way journey back home. One more day, & freedom smells fresh and near. Not long again, the vicious cycle begins. But what is there to worry for, when everything should fall into place once again.

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I dare not speak, for the emotions will spill. Yet i yearn to. Tell me, that it will be karma, that i'll do good this time round. perhaps. Weekend is coming, & i only know of one whom i wish to spend it with. ;)

And so, i'm at home.

EEEK, incredibly bored at home.
Listening to music on youtube that i don't have,
and trying desperately to read economics.
Sky is grey, i like.
Bed is comfortable, wish i could lie on it.

But no, happy studying, friends!

Volatility shocks.

Come friday, & i havent completed much. Many a time, i talk about home as a safe haven, peaceful and functions like a quiet retreat for everyday that you live and return to. It's meant to be a comfort, yet situations have become tricky. I dread coming home now, which is why i return home late everyday for the past few days, weeks maybe. One thing that comforts is the smooth texture of my sheets and familiar scent, as i lay tucked in my bed. Ramblings & all, do not give in to my whims and fancies for i will be a spoilt brat, forever will be, resenting the fate that awaits. Okay, no more rantings.

It's friday, this week's gone by in a exciting manner because of some queer realisations:
I realised i'm pro-gay (Not because i'm gay or i know ppl who are, but because it's true i believe everyone should be able to love whoever they want to love,be it of the same sex or opposite sex, thanks to someone who made me see this point), I realised i respect ppl who have a religion or a faith to call their own. I realised i should not lament on what i don't have, instead focus on what i have and live for the moment.

I bought a toy giraffe from Cold Storage yesterday, beat that. I realised i love change and spontaneity, i am a happy girl hugging golby lovegood to sleep. :)

Sun, Sea, Breeze:D

Holidays finally, how i enjoy the beach and sea breeze with not much noisy crowd. It is a quiet retreat with my only plan of the holiday, i like. :D

Feel the scorching fine sand beneath our feet,
telling secrets that we'll never leak.
Enjoying good food like we always do,
Preparing it was never a chore to.

Waterline is receeding,
Differences are what we're feeling.
From friends to partners,
Together we walk, & i'll never want to be alone.

Feel the cool breeze against our faces,
Pictures of me, you draw on brown paper.
A picturesque view before us,
& i hold contentment in my hands.

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i love being with my only plan of the holiday, &i'm just so lazy to get out of the house for anything else. Even if so, i'll only head out at night. Most of everything else is a chore, & im failing my plan of going into hiding where unimportant people doesn't exist.

I'm suffering a bout of writer's block, & i'm sad. Wished i could spend anth day at the beach, just writing about nothing & sketching. That'll be my true holiday, but no im a student & i must study. Out of the many times i wanted to give up and be a loser saying studies aren't impt, much as i'm tempted to do so, but i snap out of it because i don't want to give up anything without trying& i won't give up, because nothing's too hard.

Been out for the whole week, met many people from the past. Like how i was, and how i am now. In a couple of months, i'm going to be 18 and seeing how much things have changed. Every moment now, i cherish it because who knows what tmr brings. I've been hiding a skeleton in my closet, unlike how adam lambert decides to admit he's gay on rolling stones magazine. & everyone is so hyped up, even mph bookstore reported a soldout on that mag, when it's so obvious he's gay. It's interesting how some ppl have a gay radaar like it's part of a dna gene, yet others can be gay due to environment they grow up in.

I barely know what i'm doing now.
Maybe i take myself way too seriously.

Sleepy-eyed, & i don't ever want to wake.

I love my only plan of the holiday, & nothing else matters more. ;D

Injections of ecstasy to prevent withdrawals.

12 ppl started out on a journey together as a team,

7 ppl are left to form a union.

ECP/ mystery of the silent broom&bike attack/ Cycling for 3 hours/ Beyond sailing centre/ Ants attack/ creaking bicycle chains/ Potluck lunch/ suntanning/ mock wrestling/ life-saving exercise/ lost in camwhoring/ Simple joyous times.

In the vastness of the dark,

there'll always be a bright light shining.

Burger king/ attempts to study/ oily body/ Interrogations of who's who's friend/ unbiased judgement of who's bangs is nicer/ Party paradise/ shooting hoops at arcade/ playing addictive games/ pooh-eeyore-red bag & yellow tofu toy/ long LONG walk just to pee comfortably/ an excuse to keep company longer.